Its amazing how fast 8 weeks can pass by - and before you know it - its only a mere month and a half till I plan to be sunning and sipping alcoholic beverages by a beautiful white sand beach (thank goodness my parents still live in Hawaii **wink**)....BUT to get there will be an accomplishment in of itself.
My month of November rivals and surpasses my month of October where I stressed to the point of dreaming about my stress! November = trip to SFO (a city I love) for my first graduate school communication conference, a mid-term, and two 25 page final papers for two of my seminars...sounds like fun doesn't it?!?
I think its around this time that I look back upon my decision to head back to school and sleepless nights. Everyone keeps saying that its good to take yourself out of a comfortable place to experience new things, and I am all about this, but I feel growing pains. Growing pains in the insecurities that question if I possess and can contribute to the scholarly world of academia. I am told that everyone goes through this, and since I have liberally taken time off of school between my undergraduate experience and this one, it will feel a little more like buyer's remorse on my esteem as I notice younger 20-something guys and gals producing super intelligent questions and discussions...and to this I agree. I keep reminding myself that it (grad school) had to be now - or I would have never taken the grad school plunge, and somehow secretly inside I entertain thoughts about going on for a PhD program....which will be determined at a much later point in my life...much after contemplation of how much more stress I want to place on these aging shoulders....
But as grim as it sounds - and for all those that I complain to - its something different...and well, I love different! It's another test to my ability to excel and grow individually - and I think that we all need to force ourselves to do that once in a while. And this is my once in a while....right now...testing me... as I read articles about socialization in colleges and analysis on interview styles and try to organize thoughts about what I find "fascinating" (i swear academia people love that word) and apply those to proposals for studies of research...
I hope one day I reflect back on this blog/journal/vent place - and laugh...this would be after I receive my degree of course!....and that high paying job I was promised ;)
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On a completely separate note - T-day festivities will be held at the apartment - and then shopping will commence on the day/night after in true Dale shopping fashion! I can't wait!
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